Hospitals

I am a cancer patient so I have a lot of time in the hospital. Having emergency surguries, getting chemo and even saying goodbye to loved ones. I am very familiar with seeing various procedures and treatments. Nothing freaks me out. I have been poked, prodded and been cut open and even had a surgery where I was not asleep and felt the pain as a tumor was removed. Talking to nurses and doctors I feel comfortable with listening and questioning procedures and medicine.
What I hate about hospitals is that there is no sense of urgency in anything they do. A procedure maybe scheduled and you wait hours until the doctor is ready. My bestfriend is in ICU, I recieved an urgent call yesterday that a procedure that was potentially life threathening was about to happen and I needed to travel an hour to get there ASAP. So I jump in my car, break all speed limits and run into the ICU. Only to be told that they are waiting on the surgeon. Time seems to slow down and hours and we wait for hours until the surgery is done. After which waiting for them to finish and give an update feels like an eternity. I am amazed that they finish and no one hurries to say what has happened. Then they finally come out and say, well we did not find the reason that this is happenning. WHAT!! You just operated and nothing is found! Her life is so fragile, our nerves are on the last thread and nothing is found. I just want a reason to keep having hope. Just a small reason....not asking for a miracle just a day of good news.
I have put off chemo so I can be at my friends side. I don't have the emotional strenght to have treatment if she is in a coma, I am firm on my decision. I just wish I had that miracle soon....