Fear

Fear, what is fear? The fear of commitment. The fear of being alone, the fear of illness, even the fear of spiders. I realized that I have a lot of fear going on lately. Valentines' Day is just around the corner and this year I do not have anyone to celebrate this commercialized day that was invented by a greeting card company. The sad part is I like Valentines Day. I love the the silly love songs and cards. The small thoughtful gift, and the flowers. On my dresser sits a few Valentine gifts from years past. They taunt me. Saying you are alone..

I have not really cared about cancer treatment lately, I seem to have this feeling that I really don't care anymore. Not sure why, but treatment is not on my mind. What is on my mind is that I am alone and I hate it.