Banana Barium again!

This morning I had a CT scan. The procedure is not painful accept when they hook you up to an IV that pumps in a wierd fluid that causes you to feel heat beginning at your throat and ending in your pelvic area. The worse part of a scan in th drinking of the Barium. One bottle before bed the night before and one an hour before the scan. No food or water until scan is done. The worst flavor is banana, it is artifically flavored and you burp it up hours afterwards.
Now the wait begins. Where is the cancer now? This test will decide if I go back on chemo with a new drug. For once I am not worried. I have finally succumbed to the fact I will be on or off Chemo for the rest of my life. It is a part of me now. No longer a strange foriegn event, just a part of who I am. Now the wait begins......and I will just go with the flow. Nothing I can do will change anything.