Day after Chemo

Chemo was yesterday. My oncologist gave me some blood pressure medicine and last night during the time where I could not sleep I read the literature that comes with the drug. I said do not take if you have Lupus or Diabetes....well guess what, I have both along with the Non Hodgkins Lymphoma....so I emailed my primary doctor asking if I should take the new medicine. He said NO....it would throw me into a flare and could put me into a diabetic shock.....LOL so I am to monitor my blood pressure each day. That would be good if I owned a blood pressure machine, since I don't I will have to buy one....

I am feeling sick from the chemo....my body wants to either throw up or do something else. The anti nausea meds don't seem to be working. Sometimes I think I have enough meds to supply a third world country.

Life is not easy when you have as many diseases as I have....and am dealing with a personal crisis. The ticking of the clock sometimes feels like it goes way too slow....I wonder if I will ever feel normal again.