Not ready to make nice!

Things have happened so quickly this last week. I am moved in and unpacked. I obtained a restraining order to protect me and my daughters. I attended a divorce workshop and then actually filed the papers to liberate me. The calls and the emails have been supportive and encouraging from friends. I never thought the people who called or emailed would understand or support me. I always felt alone, scared and unhappy. I was so wrong. I waited too long to leave. My daughters will forever carry the scars of seeing an abusive relationship. I will always carry the scars inside of the abuse I recieved. Not sure if it will go away. But the sense of freedom and happiness for being out of my marriage is incrediable.

He called me yesterday....wanting help to do what the court had ordered. I am not ready to make nice. I am not ready to forgive. I guess it will take time....but maybe I will never be in that place.