Experian dates

The day after Christmas I will have Chemo. Most people will be lined up at the mall to return the unwanted gifts or try to score the great bargain of all the marked down items. I will be hooked up to an IV that will battle the cancer that continues to live inside of me. On December 21st is the anniversary of my cancer diagnoses. The conversation of that day still plays in my head....."the good news is you don't have breast cancer, but the bad news is you have Lymphoma," was what the doctor said....I remember I answered the phone while walking into the pain clinic and hearing this news. The stunned silence of not knowing what Lymphoma was. I now know everything there is to know about Non Hodgkin's Lymphoma.

As Christmas approaches, I am trying to find the spirit. Adjusting to a new life, and waiting for treatment is somewhat dimming the jolly feeling I should be feeling. Christmas traditions of times past will no longer play a role my life.

I hope I can find my Christmas spirit......I wonder if the expiration date of 3 to 5 years will be dis proven because on the 21st it will be 3 years of when the doctor told me to go home and not treat and live the remaining years of my life the best I can. The stubbornness in me wants to prove him wrong.