Changes

It has been a while since I have had the courage to write. I finally took the steps to free myself from a marriage that was abusive and demeaning. In the middle of the night I loaded up a UHaul truck with my clothes, a few art supplies and some kitchen supplies. I left behind everything else. The house where my mother lived for 29 years.....and I remodeled when she passed away. I left behind all wordly possecions to embark on a new lifes' path. I am in hiding....feeling a bit lost but also free. Free of the fear of abuse both mentally and physically, free of all the restraints that I learned to live with. I won't lie that I am not scared. With leaving I left behind finacial security. I will need to learn to live within my means of my small SSI check and without the ability to drown my sorrows with the use of credit cards and money. I am afraid, yet hopeful. Material things may have made my life easier before, but now I want to live happy and free....even if it means not having the ability to have the latest purse or go on vacation.......I have the love of my girls, family and friends to fill the void. I have my self esteem back. I don't know what is on the horizon...but I know that I with the help of my loved ones will finally be able to know what it is to live a happy life.