Mourning

My laptop has been my partner for the last few years. If I had to list what I needed to live my laptop would be at close to the top of the list. I am addicted to reading my emails, reading Facebook, following blogs, writing my own blog and of course storing my photographs and pictures of my paintings. A few weeks ago, my laptop started having problems, it was running slow, and I had to refresh pages sometimes just to see a page. I am sometimes am slow, so I thought, this is ok........my laptop would not abandon me. It stayed up late with me at night when I could not sleep, it woke up early to deliver everyday the mass of emails, it was just like a part of me. I knew that I should back up my files because I take tons of pictures. Not just of my family, but of things I find interesting like a puddle of water that has a rainbow in it. I again suffer from the tomorrow disease.....I never backed up my files.

Right before Christmas, I poured myself a cup of coffee, and turned on my laptop, I waited for the screensaver pictures of daffodils that I had taken at Daffodil Hill years ago to load up. My stomach started tightening.....the screen was blue, not a bad shade of blue but nothing happenned. I tried everything I knew to restart it, but my faithfull laptop just would not turn on. A quick call to the pc repair people was made and I ran to the shop as if I was taking my baby to the hospital. The news was not good. It would cost more to repair than to buy a new one. Debating the pro and cons of getting a new laptop was hard. Then the pc doctor said he could pull my hard drive and save my files. It would become an external hard drive and every picture and document I had created would be saved. I could live with this, I would still have a part of my old faithful but also have the speed of a new laptop. Feeling a little guilty for shopping for a laptop was like I was cheating on old faithful, but I found a sleek new model.

I was going into debt for this new gadget, but checking Facebook on my cell phone was not the same....I needed this purchase.

Yesterday, I decided I wanted to look at some picture to add to a blog piece. Plugging in the external hard drive was like introducing my old faithful to my new love. Instantly I knew that they did not get along. I tried to open up files and the drive will not open. Old faithful is holding my lifes work hostage. It will not let me see my pictures or documents. I mourn for the vacation pictures of Hawaii and the Carribean. The family pictures, the babys first photographs are held in this little device that will not cooperate. The PC doctor was called and he promised to call back but has not. I am in mourning for photos that I will never be able to reproduce. Again I am reminded that the attidude that I will do it tomorrow has come back to bite in the arse.....

When will I ever learn??? I pray that the external drive will work.....until then I am in mourning.