Where have all the people gone

Where have all the people gone? I seemed to have lost my support system. I take responsibility because I have not been easy to be around. With the divorce, depression, and the cancer I have not been the easiest person to be around....my mood is not happy jolly because to be honest, I spend too much time alone thinking about all that I have going on and it frightens me. The helpful ones who say get out more, have a good dinner, don't think about all that is wrong with you....does not really help. Most people are at work during the day....and if depression was as easy to fix by having a good meal I would be be cured. I miss the connections with friends and family. They all seem to be moving forward and I am stuck. I don't miss being abused but I sure miss the finacial security I had. I miss the being included in peoples lives.....I miss feeling strong....all I feel now is fragile. At a moments notice I seem to cry. The battles with my former employer seem to continue and I hate fighting for my benefits each week. It was pointed out that I dwell on the bad in my life....but not much good to celebrate. I would like to not feel like I am a burden.....but I do.