Midweek

Today is Thursday and May 1st a new month. Yesterday was Armando's birthday. Since he was served with the final divorce demand papers he has changed. He has accepted that we are going to be divorced and is no longer angry. I saw him yesterday and he cried. He seems so sad that the divorce is actually happening. I have mixed emotions......we were married for 28 years.....had two children so we will always have a connection but I know I deserve better now. I deserve to be treated with love and respect. As much as I went through.....I forgive him, and wish him well in life. I know some will think I should hold a grudge, but I do not. Holding anger would only hurt me in the long run.
I am still struggling with cancer and learning to live a different life........it is not easy and my feelings still are raw for how things have changed. I miss so much of the connections I had with some.......I am out of my comfort zone. Waiting to see what life brings on next.