Feeling extremely helpless

I have been extremely sad lately. Recieving the letter telling me I have used up all my medicine for the year has me frantic. I don't what I am going to do. I have sent in the papers asking for aid....but it does not look good. My lawyer called today. She had more bad news. Armando will stay with the house, and since real estate values have dropped he does not have to give me anything. This was my mothers house, filled with my things, and I get nothing. I will be assigned all other debt since he is going to have the house to pay for, and he also gets to keep his retirement. He beat me, he abused me and he is rewarded with everything.....I will have debt that I can not afford to pay, not be able to pay for meds live with used furniture in a small apartment while he enjoys the house, drives a new car and walks away after charging up thousands of dollars in debt since I left. I am so tired and feel like giving up. The abuser wins....the cancer wins.....I just keep on losing, drowning in my tears.