Lots of tears lately

It has been a little over 8 months since I left Armando and have moved in Jennifer my youngest daughter. Jennifer has always been a very quiet and undemanding child. She just goes with the flow. For years now she has had what I thought was a tick...she constantly cleared her throat. It became annoying at times. Jennifer has been on my insurance but as her birthday approaches she is about to age out. Her work does not offer medical insurance so before she was left with nothing she scheduled an appointment to make sure everything was ok before she had no coverage. There have been tons of fires here in California....the sun has struggled to shine through a constant haze that has the sky look like it is foggy. I picked Jen up yesterday for her appointment and she could not stop couphing. I thought she was catching a cold. Her doctor took her in and listened to her chest and quickly put her on a breathing machine. He gave her a shot of cortozone and she could finally relax and breathe...the clearing of her throat stopped as well as the coughing. The color returned to her face. Come to find out my insurance no longer covers her..but she was supposedly covered under Armando's insurance. We left the pharmacy and went to Walgreens to buy inhalers that she will have to use each day for the rest of her life. The clerk called Armando's insurance and presciption coverage had been dropped by Armando in his quest to cut us out of his life. I told the clerk we needed the meds and would pay for them.....for two inhalers $229.00 dollars. This is one fourth of my monthly Social Security check. But my daughter could breathe and their is no price on that.
The court has ordered me to not drop Armando from my car insurance, or my medical that has Armando on it and to pay all the bills that I have in my name. I struggle each month with those bills and then my copays and my medicines. My credit cards are quickly filling up. I have cry because I am broke finacially, and spirtually I am struggling to hang on. Armando lives in my mothers house which has all the comforts....washing machine..air conditioning and recieves his salary and has not had to choose medicines over groceries. I am scheduled for chemo on July 2nd if my blood pressure can take it....All I want to do is cry for I live with Jenny in an apartment that is so hot, struggle finacially and live with a lot less than I have ever had. I have lost wieght and my clothes are too big and yet I can not afford to buy new ones......the only thing that is free is the tears of frustration. I am fighting this cancer and trying to keep my head up through this divorce, but it seems like I can not catch a break. I am so mad and I really feel like I want peace in my soul...I wish I can find it.