faith and hope

Yesterday I was scheduled to have chemotheraphy. I have been losing wieght lately....and have not been dieting. I have gone down 2 pants sizes and 3 blouse sizes all within a month. Yesterday the nurse took my blood pressure and the oncologist came into the room and retook it. He said that paired with the unexplained wieght loss, high blood pressure and the fact tumors or lumps can be felt in my stomach area....it would be too dangerous for chemo. Chemo can bring on a heart attack if your blood pressure is too high. When you are scheduled to have chemo and they don't do it.....the oncology nurses give y0u a look...I call it the worry pity look. I left the hospital with a referral for a CT scan and a grocery bag full of new medicines. I am trying to have faith and hope that this is nothing.....but will be honest..there is a small bit of fear in me. I need to be strong......I need to be positive. Lets just pray on it.