Valentines' Day

Yesterday was Valentines Day. A day of love where millions were celebrating their partnerships. My day was different. I recieved more than 25 calls from Armando telling me what a horrable person I was.....that is a clean version of what was actually said. I have a restraining order, that prohibits him from doing this.....but I have learned that the police have more important things to enforce. There is a line from the movie Pretty Women...."if you are told you are crap so many times, after a while you believe it." I keep my phone off a lot so that I don't have to engage him....but the messages are like the hits I endured before only they don't hit my body....just hurt me emotionally.

The girls sent me flowers and candy....a reminder that with all the stuff going on, I still have love in my life. I cling to those gestures and those of the messages from friends saying just thinking about you. I hope one day my life will be returned to some normalcy soon. I don't care about the material things.....I would just like to have a life of peace and love. A day without pain would be wonderful. One day is what I am clinging to.......I hope my grip does not slip.