Faith

Wednesday was the beginning of the lent season. 40 days to renew your faith. I sat in the church intently listening to the Priest on what lent was and also listened to the bible readings. I felt a saddness that I had not been good to my faith. I prayed, but I have not God truely enter my life. The story of the man trapped on top of the house and row boats etc passing by to save him, and each time he refused saying I am waiting for God to save me. He finally drowned and as he stood before God he asked him why he did not save him. God spoke and said I sent you a row boat, helicopter etc but each time you turned them away. I wonder how many times I have not listened and accepted the help of God. How many times I looked away from the help that God has extended to me but I was too blind with my misery to see that help was being extended. I recieved ashes and went to have some dinner. When I approached to pay, my wallet was gone. I searched my purse and car and found no wallet. I felt dejected again. I had to call all the companies and cancel debit cards and credit cards..each time I spoke to the companies I asked has the card been used? The answer each time was no.

I sat still for a moment and said God what do I do now? Somehow a thought was to go back to my car and look again. In plain sight, was my wallet. It was too late all my cards had been cancelled and it would be two weeks to recieve new ones. I was grateful that I did not have to replace my license. God was speaking to me again.....do not be so quick to lose your faith. Instead of letting myself calm down and accept...I was too quick to lose the feeling of peace I had gotten in church only hours before. I am not perfect, I want to accept my challenges as gifts and stop allowing myself to lay in pity.