FIRST STRANDS

The first strands of hair came out today. Running my hands through my hair and noticed a smal clump of hair came out. I held it amazed, sad, and a little scared. I don't have any scarves ordered.....no wig.... I have the booklet but have not called. In a denial that this moment would not happen. My head has hurt all day.......a headache that felt that even the hair follicles hurt. I dreamed last night I woke up bald...in place of hair were sores. I couldn't go back to sleep....afraid of demons lurking in my dreams. My emotions are like waves....ebbing then crashing. I said before that the first sign of hair loss I would just shave it....less devastating to have it gone all at once then little by little. Will see what I actually do tomorrow.