It has been raining for the last few days. The sky has been dark as has been my mood. I will have Chemo on Wednesday and will be billed for it. It can not wait, as I have new lumps and my fingernails are bumpy. I have tried not to let depression overwhelmn me but have failed. I feel alone in my fight and the bills are mounting. The tears keep coming and I can't seem to find anything good right now. I feel slighted by my friends and family...they just don't see what is going on with me...I feel abandoned.