can you see through the clouds

Can you see through the clouds? Are you a glass half full or half empty person? I used to be a half full type of person, but now feel like the glass has a hole....never ending stress and misery seems to be what I live in. I feel lost. I feel sad most days for things I have lost. I lost the ability to earn money and work. Money is a problem now and it never was before. There is so much tension in the house because of money. As much as I try to budget, there is never enough....

Today is my wedding anniversary and my husband has forgotten. I did not expect anything for he has never been one to remember to give gifts but it still hurts that after 27 years it is not remembered or acknowledged. I feel like I give so much of myself to others yet no one gives to me....maybe I am just seeing this as one sided today...my mind is clouded with self pity and pain.

I just want today to be over.