And the doctor said...............

Today I saw the oncologist before chemo. Anxiety about the results of the CT scan played havoc on my mind and emotions. Smiling to my daughter to put on a brave face was hard with the panic that seemed to be brewing inside me.
When my name was called to see the doctor I almost jumped out of my skin.
I wanted to go alone....easier to digest bad news if you don't have an audience.
The nurse took my blood pressure, startled it was so very high. Told her I don't have high blood pressure just nervous I said. Dr. Wang came in with a smile and a piece of paper in his hand. "This is for you" he said, "Read the results of your CT scan." I just blurted out please just tell me....He said very good news.....No NEW GROWTH! The CHOP CHEMO seems to have shrunk the tumors and they have not grown back. Your lungs are only showing residual cancer but overall things are good. The cancer in your pelvis has come back but we are not going to worry about it since the cancer in your lungs, spleen and stomach has shrunk.
I want to go home and celebrate....but he says lets do a maintence chemo to keep the cancer at bay....this is not meaning you are cancer free but you are in remission. REMISSION....what a wonderful word. The prediction of 3 years ago that I would only live 3 years is now just a joke....with the help of a new doctor, a push for more aggressive treatment and a bit of hope with lots of faith I am in REMISSION...Chemo today with its side effects are happy things, and are not dreaded......I want to celebrate.....I want to dance like no one is looking.