4am

4am and sleep has left me. Not sure if it is the fact that I am going to the Oncologist today and beginning on Chemo or just the fact that the house seemed so warm that I woke up. The Women of Color event is coming up and since I am a honoree....and poster designer again I have had to actually do some art work. I keep thinking about the event and their theme of Women who have overcome obstacles and have soared. Have I soared? Not sure, I think I have had moments of hope, moments of worry, moments of questioning all that I thought was real. My faith has been tested as well as my friendships. I have had complete strangers step up and offer help or open doors...sometimes I walked through the doors. I have been lucky that family has played a big part in my life, but even those relationships have changed. Some family becoming closer, some roles have been redifined. Sometimes I walk on egg shells so that I do not disturb the balance of things....Not sure if I have soared....I think I have just survived and at times have thrived but sometimes I have stumbled and looked for a hand to help me up. Thank you to those who have extended your hands...I am extremely grateful.