Good news, keeping fingers crossed

Last week on Wednesday I had a doctor's appt and a chemo infusion. I was happy to have the appt but dreaded the infusion was not something I was looking forward to. The sickness that follows is very hard on me. My appt with my doctor started out with a smile. My CT scan shows shrinkage of tumors, clearing up my lungs and other areas. I didn't expect to hear the news....Elation, surprise and happiness is all I could think of. Going through all the side effects and hair loss has made a difference! I also got news that my proposal for a cancer art theraphy program has been accepted by my HMO. I will get to present to other cancer patients and help them distract from the worries and anxiety with art. I am so excited. A dream come true. I thought of a concept and just asked...and the HMO accepted it. The power of just asking for what you want!! The chemo sickness that has been with me since the infusion has not been fun. I am trying to focus on the good news...think positive but have to admit on days it is hard. I know the tumors are shrinking I just wish that I didn't feel like road kill afterwards. Sleepless nights filled with pain....pain of tumors shrinking and bowels that are blocked. I have to take the good with the bad and be greatful.
Yesterday I recieved a letter from the Social Security. My claim maybe approved. I don't want to hope but as I read the letter it is only a paper trail thing that needs to be verified that I have enough work credits. This will be a huge burden lifted and anxiety gone. Maybe just maybe things will be getting better.....keeping fingers crossed....keeping hope alive......waiting for the sickness to pass.