CONFUSION

Confusion is my mood today. I have Chemo brain. A sense of fogginess that has taken over my brain. This term maybe unfamiliar to you but I promise you this condition does exist. I am forgeting things and peoples names. The simple explanation maybe old age....but I promise you I am not that old. I look at everyday objects and struggle with remembering what they are called.
I run into people at the grocery store and they come and talk to me and yet for the life of me I can not remember who they are. "It's been a long time they say.......how are you?" I look around and think....wow....who is this? I play it off, make casual conversation and when we part still struggle to think who that person was.
I got a shut off notice for my water a week ago. I have the money to pay the bill but each time this week I have started to write the check, I have forgotten what I am writing a check for. Last night I heard the sprinklers going and I sat up in bed, saying OMG I have not paid the water....I get up at 2am and tell my husband that he has to pay it tomorrow or the city will come and turn it off. I quickly go to my bill pile and flip through them and think......how can I have forgotten to pay the bills? I don't forget to eat....maybe bills are not that important in my world.
I have said my prayers as long as I can remember. I realize last night that I maybe leaving parts of the "hail Mary" out, so I just tell God, you know I am just going to talk to you........that way I won't feel confused when I pray. I have so many things I need to do today......I just can't remember what they are. Chemo brain........maybe I will forget I have it.